I am not even gonna lie – I am going through a really tough time right now. Have you ever felt like life is throwing everything at you…all at once? That is right now for me.
Moving is stupid.
Let’s just get that out of the way. My team member Bernadette said that to me a few weeks ago, and I couldn’t agree more. Up until now, every time our family has moved – we have been forced to sell everything off and start over. This is the first time we are bringing everything with us – and let me just say, packing for ONE person is hard. Packing for FIVE? How do the military families do it??? Needing to move around as much as they do, I have a whole new respect for them. Our nation does not pay them nearly enough.
Now let’s add my 2 full time jobs, 1 in which I need to hit 14 deadlines by April 25th – and the other one of being a wife and mother. I feel like I am spread a bit thin lately.
And on top of that, it just seems to be one of those seasons in life. Where every night you seem to have soccer practice, a wedding or other event, a school recital, piano, Girl Scouts, or more to attend. And we are not alone – it seems like everyone is just as busy – because I continue to get calls from people who need HELP. And our family is the type of family that tries to say YES. Yes, we can help come start your car. Yes we can bring that family dinner. Yes, I can photograph your wedding for you. Yes, we can watch the kids on church on Sunday. Yes, yes, yes. Add onto that sick kids, computer sites completely going down and being on the phone with Tech support for 3 days in a row, and more….and I am TIRED.
There are days I just want to crawl back in bed and pull the covers up over my head. And I feel like I need a vacation, desperately. I want to get in the car and start driving for Mexico, and not stop. I am living with fear, not knowing how I am going to accomplish it all. I normally like to see the joy in every day, even the busy ones! But am having a hard time seeing the forest through the trees lately.
But then something happened. I got a reality check.
I bring my daughter to her piano class, and her teacher is currently undergoing chemotherapy. She made the decision to continue giving her piano lessons throughout all of this time – because she KNOWS it will keep her grounded. Something to look forward to in the days of cancer. Something normal.
She looks at me, knowing that I am a seamstress, and asks if I have any good turban patterns because she is planning to lose her hair this week.
It’s in those moments when life stops.
Sometimes we need those moments in life. Moments when you realize just how blessed you really are. And not only that, but moments when you realize that you can indeed drop everything and truly help someone else. To make someone else MATTER.
This woman is the epitome of strength to me.
She reminded me with 1 simple question to take every day as it comes. To be THANKFUL. To act GRACIOUS. To be KIND and LOVING. And to be HUMBLE.
Not everything is going to come easy, in fact – the best things in my life have always been the things I needed to strive and work hard for. But by walking through the process, I have always made it to the other side. It may not always have been the side I envisioned when starting, but it is always the side I am meant to be on – whether that be left, right, or straight.
And sometimes I just need to trust more. I need to trust in Him. In His timing. In His faithfulness, and goodness, and love.
I need to not be so selfish, and self-involved in my own life. And remember that there is a whole life going on around me – and everyone has problems. Everyone has issues they are going through, and we are not meant to live life alone. To be islands among ourselves, but to live life together. And sometimes that means I personally need to reach out too and ask for help myself.
This woman reminded me of what true STRENGTH is, and she is my hero.
So please bear with me if I am a bit more silent lately. I love my work, and I love you. I love blogging and being connected with my readers – you guys are truly the best. This has become a job that I truly love to wake up and do, make, or create – every day! It is just a busy time in my life right now – and in order to get everything done, I might not be able to respond to every e-mail, or comment. The blog will continue to put out awesome content, with the team I have supporting me – that is inevitable :). I just personally might be a bit more silent than usual. But know I love you, and I will be back once the dust settles!
And I will be doing it all, with a thankful heart. Or at least trying to.
Thank you so much for stopping by and reading, and I hope you all have a wonderful day!
Until next time…